Whatever it is you believe, you need to lean into with everything you have.
If your beliefs aren’t worth being questioned, they aren’t worth being believed.
The first sentence is intellectual integrity and the second is intellectual honesty.
How many Christians say they believe in God but don’t live like it? That is lacking integrity. Many surveys have been done that show Christians act and live just like non-Christians.
You need to put your beliefs through the ringer. Ask yourself what you believe, why you believe it and then assess your life in light of what you believe and see if you are living accordingly. If you aren’t living accordingly then I would question how firmly you actually believe what it is you say you believe.
One of the reasons we stink at evangelism is because we have an integrity issue – we aren’t living as we believe so we understand that people will spot the inconsistency AND we will not feel adequate talking to someone else about changing their lives when we haven’t changed ours.
Be a person of honesty and integrity. Then you will be able to lay your head on the pillow at night knowing you have done what you can do and leave the rest up to God.